nowadays i cannot find her

quality quotes from joel:

the oft-repeated "I KNOW HOW IT FUCKING WORKS"

"do you want me to make him more dead"

"i killed my best friend today; what did you do"

and finally

"I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE

I'M FUCKING SORRY

I CAN'T DO IT"

(the anti-hero of sorts in the story i'm writing.

the only time he smiled was when he thought he'd killed nelson)